Yesterday one of my old friends and co-workers posted a playlist, as he often does on Mondays. One of the songs was "All the Gold in California" by Larry Gatlin. I thought I'd had not heard that song in a few years and went to play it on YouTube.
As YouTube does, another Larry Gatlin song came up in queue, "Broken Lady". As it played and I remembered the words vividly, it was like a dam had burst in my heart (lyrics to some other country song) and if I could have, I would have hit the floor.
I had not heard either song since the 80's, at least. And the words to "Broken Lady" rang so true in my head and heart. I've been divorced since 2004, but I never meant to be. I thought that I could love enough to get us through anything, and it just wasn't true. It was an impossible task I should have never took on, but I did.
I listened to the song and sang out thru tears, until the tears dried up and I moved past it, again. I've moved past the hurt many times in the last 15 years or so, many times more than that during the marriage. I must remember, again, my synopsis of that failed experiment.
My worst day without him has still been better than my best day with him!
