Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Where does the time go?

Man, I didn't realize how many days had passed since I'd posted. I've been busy - or it seems like it anyway. My son was home for the weekend - that was very nice. He's making alot of progress and I believe he'll be back home fulltime before too much longer.

My daughter has settled into campus life pretty good I believe - she made it through the first week of classes and didn't skip any!! She's a good girl who probably wouldn't make that a habit - at least, I hope not!!

Right now, I'm looking forward to September 11 - the runoff election is that day. It's been fun but now it's tiring and I'm so ready for it to be over.

Who am I kidding? I've already jumped on Team Hillary - and our state representative will be running for re-election next year so I've already committed my time and energy to her for that campaign.

I have to say this - and I'll probably say it a million more times this year - if you are female and have ever had a relationship with someone who hurt you - even if only once - and you don't vote for Hillary, you are crazy! Just my opinion I know, but as a bitter ex-wife I think I have the right to say that all women should vote for her just to show the guys we can and will stick together.

They (men) get way too many miles out of women bickering and blaming each other when they're the ones that act like a dog! If wives and mistresses, who usually become mistresses because he has lied, teamed up and opened 55 gallon drums of whip-ass on his ass, we'd see alot of things change.

OK - I told you I was bitter!

And, for the record, Hillary is extremely intelligent and I believe she can pull it off.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

I Love Nashville!

Last night I had to drive over to East Nashville to scope out a place I need to go next week - I usually do that because I like to know where I'm going and I don't like to be late, especially if I was driving around looking for the place!!

I drove over the newest bridge over the Cumberland River - I believe it's called the Korean War Vets bridge - it connects 1st Avenue and Shelby right by the Titans stadium. When you are on the bridge, the view of the city is gorgeous! You can see the river, the stadium, the new art sculpture, Riverfront Park, and most of the high rises. Quite a pretty site!

I realized right then that I love Nashville! Oh yeah, there are parts I don't like and we have some problems, but I can't imagine living anywhere else. It was a good thought for me - I'm part of a web based list serve for my city council district that usually has nothing but complaints and bickering - looking over at the city and feeling the way I did renewed my faith in my fellow man, even those on the list serve! It made me remember that I'm proud to be a Nashvillian and I'll probably stay right here until I die.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Liberal is not a four letter word!

Today I was reading this list of things about living in the South - it was great until I got to the last one - if you're not Republican, it said, just get the hell out!

Well, I'm not Republican and I ain't going nowhere! I don't know exactly when the word liberal became a four letter word, but I'm here to defend my position.

I am actually quite conservative in the way that I live and think. I believe everyone has the responsibility to get an education, get a job, and live within the means they can provide themselves. I believe everyone has a responsibility to register to vote the day they turn 18 and exercise that right every single time the polls are opened. That also includes finding out who the candidates are, what the issues are, and making a decision based on your own convictions that you can defend if you're asked about it. I believe each person has a responsibility for their own spirtuality - I personally believe in GOD and Jesus and the Holy Spirit, but I respect your right to believe otherwise. I'm thankful I've never had to make a decision on abortion for myself, and pray daily for the women who face that decision and feel there is no other alternative.

I don't believe homosexuality is in accordance with God's plan or creation, but I choose to love each human as the Holy Bible directs us to do. I will stand, as each of us, alone, for my judgment day in front of God. I will have plenty to answer for myself, so I will pray for you, but you will have to answer for your own sins.

I'm proud, if you believe differently than me, that you know what you believe and WHY. I greatly respect the ones that have fought and died, have waged lengthy battles in legislatures, courts, and battlefields for us to be able to stand here today, possibly polar opposites, and still respect each other.

These are the things that make me a liberal - I won't apologize for them. I won't shove my beliefs down your throat or comdemn you for thinking otherwise - that's just the way things are. But, I will work with you to try and reach compromises or understanding so we can all live happily.

After all, it's still America!

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Willpower

I've re-read my post about grit - it's really been on my mind alot lately. Since I have so much time to think!! This house is too quiet - even the cat is sleeping more than 22 hours a day!

Anyway, I can't chalk off everyone who has some failure in their life to not having grit or determination. My life has not always been easy, but most of that has been the results of my own decisions. There was a 15 year nightmare of a marriage - that alone could be multiple blogs - I'd never get thru writing. And, there've been the things that simply happened, the car wrecks (yes there were two), some physical problems with healing, etc. and the usual financial woes that go with being a working class person trying to raise kids.

I've made it thru all of these and at some point, things hadn't been nearly as bad as they seemed at the time. But, there is one battle I've waged very unsuccessfully - it's been a war, and I've been defeated, at least to this point. I'm referring to my weight. I am morbidly obese - I mean morbidididididly - most people who weigh what I do don't even get out of bed and yes, they've been on t.v.

I've seen the women who weighed 400 pounds in a wheelchair - at 400 pounds I was working fulltime running a childcare facility, keeping an eleven room house, and raising two kids plus dealing with the idiot.

Since the first wreck 8 years ago I've gained - mobility became an issue - then more weight lessened the mobility I had and it just goes in circles like a hurricane. And, I've reached Category 5.

Now that I have both kids settled somewhat (for a while - with kids you always have to be prepared for the bottom to fall out), I think the time has come for me to devote all my grit, determination, and this extra time to getting myself down to a healthy weight. I'm not sure exactly where this journey will take me - or what obstacles I may face - but one thing is for sure, it's going to be worth writing about!!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Strength

I heard a song last night - don't know who by or the name but it's a man singing about his wife and all the things she's done, including surviving breast cancer, and the refrain is something like "I thought I was tough".

Really got me to thinking about inner strength and drive. My mom always called it 'grit'. One day, not too long before she passed away, we were walking side by side going in somewhere and we were talking about still driving on no matter what life gave you. I'm sure it came up because neither of us looked or were moving like we needed to be up must less outside somewhere. She made a comment that people didn't realize how "tough us two old birds are".

I don't think I'd realized until then how tough I am. Not tough in a mean streetwise way - I've never mopped the floor with anybody - but tough with perseverance, determination and drive - grit.

And I thought about something else - folks who cave in, give up, have a 'woe is me' atittude, who whine and complain, whose glass is 'half empty' and those who become drug addicts, alcoholics, life long criminals - do they have grit?

Is it there and just untapped, or is is missing altogether? Something to ponder - I'm sure I'll write plenty more about this subject.

Scarlett O'Hara - now she had grit! Even though the sequel was decades in coming, who had any doubt at the end of GWTW that Scarlett wouldn't get Rhett back?

Let me know what you think!

Sunday, August 12, 2007

She's Moving Out!

Today is the day! My daughter will move this afternoon to a college dorm room - just 4 miles down the street - but under a different roof than me for the first time in her life! She's been on trips, etc. we've just never 'lived' apart.

I am not sad. I may be in a couple of days - but right now I am so excited for her. College life is a whole new experience and she's ready for it. She has a job on campus and has already been working. She has already registered for all of her classes and the books are bought.

The living room is full of stuff to go - a new refrigerator and microwave, rolling storage carts, bed clothes, pillows, linens and clothes, clothes, clothes. She has two cork boards, one fully covered with pics from high school, home and friends, the other a calendar and room for the college stuff.

It will be different around here - very quiet for sure. The biggest change for me is the lack of things I need to do - her senior year was so busy and we were always on the way to or from somewhere. Then, all of a sudden, it's over. My fall calendar does not include all the band practices, band booster meetings, ballgames and competitions, club meetings, days out of school, play practice, doctor appointments, deadlines to have things paid for!!, etc.

I haven't been into her room, but I don't think there's too much left in there. When I feel like I'm about to break down later this week, I'll go in there, sit on her bed, and cry it out. Then I'll be fine!

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Heat!

Man is it hot in Nashville! We hit 100 degrees yesterday, 102 today and it's supposed to be 103 tomorrow. I'm staying inside - mostly. I did have to go to the bank today and because of that critical need, I went outside. It was miserable. I have asthma and some heart irregularities - between the two of them I wouldn't last too long out there! I'm so grateful for my central air unit and say a prayer for it everyday - next month I'm sure I'll be praying about the electric bill, but that gets the Scarlett treatment - I can't think about that today!

Saturday, August 4, 2007

Movies

YES! Saturday finally got here. It was a very busy week and it's been so very hot here that it really took a toll on me. The temperature probably wasn't as bad, but the air quality in Nashville right now is so poor because we've not had any rain to speak of this summer. The forecast for the coming days is worse - we expect to hit 98-99 degrees every day this week. I doubt that my nose will be outside at all!!

Today I've been catching up on movies. I've watched "The Break-Up". It was ok - some things hit a little close to home so I'll rate it a 6 because I like Jennifer Anniston. I watched "The Stepford Wifes". I give it a 5 and only because I like Nicole Kidman. I tried to watch "One Early Morning" - I may even have the name wrong. I like Ashley Judd but I just didn't enjoy this one at all. I ended up getting on the phone and talking thru the last 30 minutes - maybe it gets better and I don't know it.

Anyway, most movies do not entertain me. I find that they drag in the middle and I'm wishing they'd end already. I don't usually go to the movies - it's just too much money to pay and feel mediocre about the what you've spent $10.00 to see. I've always liked the books way better (if there is a book) and movies are a poor second to the written word.

Maybe I just need to look for better movies!

Friday, August 3, 2007

Election Day

Yesterday was Election Day in Nashville. We were voting for a mayor, vice mayor and our entire city council. Some fields were crowded, some folks ran unopposed. We have a new vice mayor for sure, and 5 at large seats on the council. There'll be a runoff for the office of Mayor and for the councilseat for the district I live in.

I'm supporting the incumbent and have actually done some work to help her - the tally was so close at the end of the night - only about 20 more votes could have avoided the runoff - I have to think what if I'd spend 2 more hours doing something!!! I don't know if anybody else will think that way - it's probably just part of my accept responsibility for the world personality.

Anyway, we'll take the weekend to back up and regroup and start Monday working toward September 11, date set for the runoff elections. I have some extra signs in my van - can I put one in your yard?

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

New Lists

Today I changed some of the lists in my blog. I've added a list of things that really tic me off - in fact, I could probably make a whole new blog and post daily on the latest, newest thing that has ticked me off, but I won't (right now).

I've just been irritated the last few days beyond words. For one, I have a hard time moving around. And when I'm done for the day, I'm just done. That's it - I'm wiped out and there's nothing else to do but get parallel to the mattress and rest. On more than one occasion (the latest being Sunday) I've found myself in this state when somebody (and yes they are people I know!!) starts knocking on my back door like the house was on fire.

I chose to ignore them - I hadn't invited them over and they hadn't called, when they start yelling, etc. because they think I may be inside and unable to get to the door. (Duh)

I suppose I should appreciate the concern and let it go, but, the pain of getting up, getting redressed, putting the cat up because they're scared of him, walking to the door, and letting in guests I didn't want to see far outweighs any appreciation I've been able to summon.

There wasn't anything critical that needed tending to - they just wanted to visit and wanted my opinion about a project they'll be working on this fall. They really are nice people and I'm going to tell them in a nice way not to ever show up again unless I know plenty in advance they're coming - I just have to calm down another day or two before I talk to them.

You know, blogging is like great therapy and it costs so much less!!